Obsession

What a title for this post, hu?

But it fit's, wait read on and see..

This weekend I did something incredible ... uhm.. (let me find the right work)... stupid - crazy.. yes, I think cRazY fit's best. Hubs was out on Friday night, so I started watching something he'd never watch with me, he really doesn't like Fiction series of movies or stuff, so I'm on my own for this.

Do you know heroes? The TV-show? Well, I do! I've seen the first season some years ago and was hooked, like really hooked. I've also seen the second season, but then I lost track somehow. I think they showed the third season when I was busy with Twilight, so I missed it completely. Well, on Friday I thought with hubs being out, I could watch some episodes of the third season .... (some...*rolls eyes at myself*)

Ok, now starts the craziness: When I started with the first episode and then watched the second and the third, I was hooked again, and I mean really.stupid.crazy hooked.

I have seen the entire third season in one fucking weekend!!! I won't tell you how many episodes this freaking season has because this would be too... embarrassing. Just google it if you wanna know..

I stopped Friday night, woke up on Saturday made a coffee and went on where I stopped. I watched the whole day - drinking coffee, just interrupted by going to the toilet from all the coffee and having a smoke outside, but then I went on. I stopped for cooking and spending the evening with hubs (no heroes) and Sunday morning the same went on.

I simply couldn't stop!! Whenever I finished one episode I wanted to know how it's going on. I finished the season by Sunday afternoon and immediately looked out for season 4. It was just available in english, but this couldn't stop me! So I also watched the first 4 episodes from season 4.

Apart from the series itself there is this Hottie and oH.My.gOOdness. I adore him he's really cute, holy sweetness - he's hot! This might be also a point why I got so hooked, a series without a hot guy that could be admired would be... well boring...

oh boy....

Now that I admit this CrAZineSs I feel better, a bit, a tiny little bit. But I can't avoid reflecting that this is absolutely insane. Definitely insane. Moreover, this isn't the first time I did something like this - something which (when looking closer) looks like an obsession!

I think with Twilight it was worst. I spend all my freaking free time with Twilight, the books, the audiobooks - when I finished the series for the first time I started all over again. I think some of you are totally there with me, some of you did the same, right? (Please don't let me alone here) Then I got the DVD and I watched this movie like 100 times.

Twilight is one thing, like I said and hope I'm not alone here, but then there is True Blood and the Vampire Diaries and ... and!!.. AND.... and...

With True Blood I did the same, hubs was out and I watched the whole season in one weekend. The second season I followed each week on TV but then.. I watched both seasons all over again - like there was nothing else, just one.episode.after.the.other. Yep, crazy... insane... screwy..

Oh and the Vampire Diaries - you get the point here - I did the same. Maybe not as obsessed as with Twilight and True Blood. But still..

Well, and then there is the time when I read a book I really love, when starting it, I just.can't.fucking.stop! Happened a few times, take for example the Percy Jackson books. I started with one book and (thank god to my Kindle: click, buy and get it immediately) I finished one and started with the next one.

Beautiful Creatures is just one more example of this. I mean just look at my previous post, they were all more or less about this book. *heavy sigh* This book, finished in one day! Yep, one day!

When talking about books, I also need to mention Fanfics. Yes you guess right, also here my obsessive disorder takes over. Know Wide Awake? Well, this is a HuGe ( and I mean it!) fanfic and I read it in one weekend! but here I know, that there is at least one more that did the same and funnily during the same weekend! (yes fragile, I mean YOU)

I mean, this level of obsession differs from time to time. One day it's Twilight, the other day it's (let's take the latest example) heroes and it feels like being drawn into a world where I don't want to get out, like being in trance.

I would be nice that I had this obssesion about serious things like, writing my damn fucking thesis, doing sports or loosing weight - some stuff which really have a value in the end, but no... didn't happen yet...

Ok girls, please don't tell me I'm alone with this insanity.

Did you do something similar - ever?

I know some of you have kids which might be a problem

with watching an entire season in one weekend,

but did you do something similar

where you felt a bit awkward when reflecting it?

Or am I alone and need seriously help?

The sexy bad (nor not so bad) Vampires.

Since I promised you something last week, today I want to focus on the other Vampires we find in the TV shows. Apart from our tortured Vampires we always find a second main character which most of the times appears darker then the main figure.

He’s the one who enjoys being a Vampire and never bothered killing humans to feed on them. Specially in the beginning one always has the feeling that those are actually the really bad Vampires, the ones we need to be scared of. It seems like they lack all humanity.

But is that all we can say about them: dark, sadistic, rough, bad, totally vampire, no soul, no heart, no feelings? Nope, there is much more and that’s why I tempt to say that they are often the more interesting characters. 

Let’s see whom we have:

Spike (Buffy), Damon (Vampire Diaries), Eric (Oh my Eric, True Blood), Joseph (Moonlight) … But uhhhh there is someone missing? (And before you say something I didn’t include Interview with a vampire, no Tom Cruise and no Lost Boys… Sorry)

We definitely miss this type of character in Twilight!!! James? Na, he’s dying in the beginning, no nice thing to say about him. Aro, Caius, Marcus: The don’t count in here… They are too different. Too sad…

However, what all those Vamps have in common is the joy being a Vampire and the joy of scaring the shit out of others.They are mostly arrogant, sniffy, and contemptuous of every non-vampire creature. This is how we get to know them.

Anyway, there is more inside those characters than just that. When we get to know them better, we see that they are not as dark and evil as they pretend to be. Although they are the real creatures-of-the-night, they do reform during the show/movie. For example: Spike really goes through a huge development, fells in Love with Buffy and although he was that evil guy one starts to sympathize with them. Just like Damon (Vampire diaries) in episode 3. I’m really curious how this character will form during the next episodes. Eric, well Eric…all we have to say about this particular vamp you find here in this big post from FireCrotch and me.

At some point we see how this bad Vamps fells in love with a girl and shows that he still has something called a heart or even a soul and the darkness mingles with softness we’ve never seen from them before. That’s what makes them more intriguing you see how they find back what they have lost over centuries. Humanity, kindness and probably something like a soul? This confuses them, a lot.

But do they seek for redemption, just like the tortured vampires? What do you think?

Let’s go to the close up:

Spike

At the beginning he was pretty much annoying. The punk vamp, truly evil and he likes to hit and scare humans, specially women. But it happens that he felt in love with Buffy and then tries to get his soul back with the hope that Buffy will finally love him. I know at lot of you really liked Spike.

Damon

Unfortunately I can’t say so much about him since I didn’t read the books. There have been just 3 episodes released so far. Damon is that entire arrogant, evil and definitely sexy Vamp. Who is just there to torture his brother Stefan. But the last scene of episode 3 showed a bit more from him and that indeed there is some softness in him. We just need a bit more time to see inside him.

Joseph

He’s Mick’s best friend and enjoys the vampire-living, parties and fresh blood, and this please from pretty women. Although he represents here the “bad (not so bad) vampire” he is mostly a funny guy and one tempts to like him easily. But because I <3 fragile little human, he makes his appearance here on my blog.

Eric

Oh well Eric, he is definitely all I said above and more. He’s fascinating and intriguing. The more we see from him the more we want to know him better and see behind the facade. If you are a big Eric fan, read more about him here! And I have to say it, I love this picture with Sookie and Eric.

I’m a bit unhappy with this post because I couldn’t include anything Twilight here. But I promise you’ll get more Twilight you ever dreamt of here in the next weeks… more on that I’ll announce soon…

Anyway girls, who is your favourite bad – not so bad- Vamp? I guess it will be tough between two of them…  I bet on ….   Well, let’s see! Or do you still prefer the ones with more kindness and humanity, the “tortured” ones?

For me – like most of you  - Edward will always be my favourite. He has everything, sexy, kindness, softness but can be tough when we need it.

But like last time, Edward cannot be voted today. So I’ll take Eric! (but Damon is also a hot one….)

Eric is So Tortured. Well, is he - or not?

Well, somehow my last post really gave way for a lot of discussion. Some of you have been disappointed that I didn’t include Eric in this post. But I had my reasons. I didn´t consider Eric being one of those tortured Vampires because he obviously loves being a Vampire. He never had problems killing humans or taking their blood.

But I’ll let someone speak for Eric, so here is what FireCrotch from WeBitePrettyHard has to say ( you will find everything from FireCrotch in black and my thoughts in red :

(**I’m going to try and do this without spoilers from the books (which makes things awfully difficult because that’s how I fell in love), but if you haven’t finished season 2 of True Blood, you should finish and then read this post.**)

I know I know…people are still so Team Bill.  And you are all still probably sobbing uncontrollably wondering what happened to Bill after he proposed to Sookie in the season finale.  Yes, I understand the Bill love, truly I do, because I too cared for Bill…but the adoration has waned and now I only have eyes for Mr. Northman.  “Why?” you may ask.  I know he seems like a BAMF and up to no good (case in point, chaining a bunch of peeps up in the basement of Fangtasia including our beloved Lafayette). Yes this is a good point, Bill would have never done that and this was really mean and so bad-vampy like.  He has been around for a thousand years and there is very little humanity left in him.  He doesn’t have a problem killing or drinking from humans (unlike Bill).  He seemingly gets off on the power he wields being sheriff (especially over Bill).  But let me count the ways that I heart Eric:

1.      He can fly and he likes teacup humans. (I hope we will see him flying in the next season! But yeah Fire this is really really a reasonable reason for loving him …;) )

2.     He doesn’t take crap from anyone (well except for the Queen…Yahtzee anyone?).  He was a warrior, and a good one at that.  He was so good that on his deathbed, his maker asked him to stay with him forever because he was impressed with his mad battle skills.

3.     He’s a tricky bastard.  Yup, he totally tricked Sookie into drinking his blood so that they would be bonded together.  And then we all (ok, all of us minus Betti) got the treat of a totally erotic dream with Eric. If only the camera man could have swooped a little further down and to the left. *sigh* (Gosh this scene was awesome and seeing him smiling was so wonderful)

4.    He is loyal.  See number 5 below for my comments about Eric’s loyalty to Godric.  Have you noticed how close he and Pam are?  I could say so much on this subject from the books, but I won’t, except that Eric is Pam’s maker.  And Pam colors and styles his hair.  ‘Nuff said.

5.     He loves deeply.  Raise of hands for those who teared up when Eric pleaded with Godric not to leave him. (I cried like hell and even watched it again… ) Yup, that’s what I thought, you can put your hands down.  For a thousand years Godric and Eric raped, looted, pillaged, and plundered their way through the world.  Godric taught Eric everything he knew about his new life in death.  We are only left to wonder at their close relationship, but doesn’t this picture really say it all?

Just for the record, I love him too! While I was definitely Team Bill in the beginning, Eric gained a lot of profile in Season 2 – and the haircut finally made him sexy! Reading the books made me love him even more. He is the more interesting character, he´s conflicted and not knowing what goes on in his head makes him even more fascinating.

But coming back to what FireCrotch has to say about Eric being tortured:

So why do I say that Eric is tortured?  Because he has loved and lost.  And there is something about Sookie that he is drawn to whether he wants to admit it or not.  He has lived for centuries, and yes, very little of his humanity is left, but in those moments with Godric, I think we got a glimpse of Eric’s former life.  He is a deeply private man who is now facing the rest of his life without his maker.  Has he lived long enough?  Does he still have purpose?  And what of Sookie?  Why does he continue to pursue her?  Eric has a lot on his emotional plate right now. 

This is totally true, he starts realizing that his feelings for Sookie are much more than just the wish to have sex with her or  taste her blood. But does this makes him tortured? I would rather say confused. It´s been a long time since he felt something close to Love and that´s maybe why he simply doesn´t recognize the feeling for what it is. Seeing Eric crying in this episode really showed that Eric is a lot mor than just the bad Vampire who owns a bar and likes to frighten some humans. Also, I guess it is hard  for him to admit these feelings to himself.

In comparison, Bill had to leave his wife and children behind, but he’s only had to deal with the loss for 150 years or so.  And maybe he still has some living relatives…who knows?   Yes, he is determined to mainstream, and no he didn’t really want to turn Jessica, but really, why is he such a pussy when it comes to protecting Sookie from Eric?  Bill feels that he was cheated out of his life with his family and death, but it certainly didn’t stop him from living it up with his maker Lorena for decades.  So tortured, perhaps…totally whipped, absolutely. 

Whatever he has done during the time with Lorena, at some point he stopped it because he hated the “life” they were living. You remember the episode where he visited his remaining family? There he realized that this life is gone and he can never have it back. He lived the life Lorena showed him and at that point he simply didn´t know any better. He would do everything to be back human again, do you think Eric would give his Vampire life for a human mortal life? I guess not.

I disagree…I think that Eric would give his life…he did save Sookie during the bombing (even though he tricked her into sucking the bullets out of him and thus ingested his blood, hehe).  But if he had not covered her, she probably would have died.  And for those of you who say Eric wasn’t in danger of dying from his wounds, I say to you that vampires did die in the blast, so potentially he could have died saving her.  I think this was where we finally got to see Sookie’s importance to Eric (even if he did act like a total ass after the fact).

Oh yes you are totally right, this was an important scene and definitely showed how much Eric cared for her. But I still believe he did that with the knowledge he wouldn´t die. I know some of them died, but still I think he cares more for his own life than for a human’s. I mean, yes he wants to have Sookie, but he still doesn´t know that he loves her.

One part for Eric I want to add. It was the episode before the bombing, where Sookie was captured and he came to rescue her and Godric. He handed himself to Fellowship so that Godric and Sookie could go. This scene showed a lot of his character, when I saw it I couldn´t believe what he was doing. I loved him a bit more after this episode and it made me forget the fact that he called Lorena to get Bill out of the way so that he could get closer to Sookie… 

It seems that Mrs. V and I have different views on the subject of Eric being a tortured soul, erm, man, erm, vampire.  What do you think? Yeah, tell us - what do you think??

Me and the disaster of the New Moon premiere!

Caution: this will a whiny pathetic post, in case you are already in a shitty mood yourself, don´t read on but come back and read it later! I definitely need people who pity me... 

I guess I need to start at the beginning. When the dates of the New Moon premiere have been released I was immediately pissed, because the former Germany release date was January7. Ridiculous!!! There was no way I would see NM that late, rather will hell freeze or Bella will go with Mike to prom before I would see NM first time in January.

At the same time, BFF applied for a two weeks workshop in the states, New York to be precise and this would go until: November, 19!!! 

Destiny!!! Fate!!!

We formed the genius, marvelous plan that she will fly home later and I would meet her in NYC on the 19., we would see NM and have a great weekend in New York. 

Doesn´t that sound fabulous? Oh Yes it does!!! I was so hooked! MrV even promised to take care of a good hotel. I was even close to convince my Twiancé Betti to come with me ( you remember we are twigaged?).

However, they changed the German releases date and accelerated it to November,26.! Better, but not good enough! This is still one week later - one week where nearly every blogpost will look somehow like this: 

*Squeeeeee, cutie and Memory_Jean in the New Moon premier* - *Twitarded fighting the kiddies at the New Moon premiere* - *New Moon - Bitches!! * - *fragile little human, BFF, drinks, New Moon premier*  

and so on and on ....

Anyway, the plan was still on, and BFF and me were still excited about it. The only little, tiny, small thing missing was the acceptance. I never ever doubted they won´t take her. I can´t post a picture form her, but she is all lovely, beautiful and so smart!!! They would be stupid not to take her.. 

But!!! so they did. They rejected her! We got his fucking email this week.. 

*screaming*

*crying*

*hating*

*yelling* 

All this wonderful master-plan dead, over, not working any more! I can´t tell how fucking pissed I was, or still am! Unfortunately, she just can´t do it either way, meaning flying with me just for this weekend.

I still could do it alone - MrV thinks this would be crazy like hell, but he did crazy stuff himself. But do I really want that ? Seeing the movie alone might be OK, but I´m not that kind of person who likes spending so much time alone on a trip. And hey, what is better to see this film with someone as excited as you are? We are not talking  about any movie, we talking about New Moon - my favorite book and Edward fucking Cullen, played by Robert fucking Pattinson. I would sit alone in a big city and would have nobody to talk about it and I´m such a chatty person.

So here I am desperate, whiny, pathetic, pissed, mad and simply fucked up! 

The only thing which keeps me up, is the knowledge that my lovely Betti  will come to Munich and we´ll see New Moon together! This, we would have done nevertheless, but it makes me incredible happy to finally meet her - I never even thought we would meet at some point, but Twilight brings us all together, even in real life.

However, I won´t see New Moon at the same day as you all, but I´ll have Betti!!! We will scream, cry and laugh together and me thinks we will get some bruised from squeezing our hands and wrists...

My new photoshop love made me do this here, but Betti is truly the bestest of the best, she made this beautiful Comic-Betti and the popcorn!! Lovveee you soo much!!!!