Oh how I have missed this...

You may ask about what the hell I'm talking about now.

I'll tell you.

But I have to go back first....

After I saw Twilight in the theaters I desperately waited for the DVD release and actually I counted the days until I finally have this DVD at home and can watch Twilight whenever I want, how often I want.

I've seen New Moon twice on the big screen, once with Betti at the Germany premiere and once alone in the original version.

That's it, twice.

But truth to be told, I've seen it three or four times afterwards at home... bad quality, german.. well, you know what I mean... (Yes I know it's not right, but it was New fucking Moon!! Don't judge me..) But, this is not the same...

I pre ordered the DVD rather late, mostly due to this whole confusion about which version has how many freaking and exciting extras. But, the choice here in Germany was easy - there was only one version with about 3 hours of Extra. So I pre ordered it as a good Fan.

The DVD came April 15th and I haven't seen New Moon for MONTH! So you'd assume the Anticipation was immense - like desperately immense.

Strangely it wasn't....

Although I hear the Soundtrack nearly every day when driving to work, or I hear the audiobooks ( atm I'm hearing New Moon again..) So it's not like I suddenly lost my TwiLove, no definitely not. I don't actually know what was up with me. I just didn't feel like watching...

April 15th came and so was the DVD delivered and I .. just brought it .. home. *shrugs* I mean yes, I was happy and all and I smiled at my DVD (which is kinda weird, smiling at a DVD but, oh well ...) but I didn't even unpack it.

Weeks passed and I didn't watch it.

Until today!

I have no fucking clue what was different today but all over sudden I felt like I desperately want to watch New Moon.

And Oh boy, I did!

And I not even watch New Moon, afterwards I watched the Extras and I'm not done yet and when I finished this post I go back and watch the rest.

But you know what the best thing was? It nearly felt like the first time I saw it, and this is incredible, It was so wonderful and truly truly what I needed! I won't go into detail again about me being always so damn close to cry but New Moon makes me cry nearly the whole movie!

Yes, you can laugh bit it's still true! If I wouldn't look so bad right now, I would show you my red eyes now to prove it, so you just have to believe me,

It felt so good! The movie went again right and straight into my heart. The most desperate scene

October

November

December

is for me still the best scene in the whole movie. It perfectly delivers and transports the emotions needed in that moment. The song just fits perfect!!

KStew's performance was awesome, TayTay was great and won my heart with this movie and Rob was just *sighs heavily* Rob, Robward, Edward...

All I want to say, I'm out of the New Moon numbness and now I'm right back to wait desperately for Eclipse.

To be back with the story that

won my heart so entirely like no story before and

probably none that will come later.

Spoiler free! A report from a Twipure Girl!

November seems now soo far behind now, but I remember so clearly when we all have been in the "Pre - November - Is it November yet?" time and impatiently waited for the New Moon release!

I'm still not done talking about New Moon - definitely not! (You can read my outlet about Bella and TayTay) But now I'd like to talk about my Spoiler free experience and why I was so damn glad I had the strength to do it - all the way!

To clarify:

I do love all your spoiler bunnies with all I have, so don't run away! Maybe you find it also interesting what I have to say ? :)

See, I think it's different seeing spoilers from a movie when you are not head over heels about the story and when you don't know the book behind the movie by heart. I mean we all read the Twilight books probably more than once. I stopped counting after the 5th time - Yes I read all of them 5 times, New Moon even more often. Let's take Avatar for instance : Here I watch the trailer without thinking about staying spoiler free. Why? Because I don't know the whole story behind and I won't compare anything with my knowledge of the book behind (Is there a book behind, I guess not..). Apart from that I won't probably see this movie as often as I saw Twilight and will see the other Twilight movies...

Wooohoo anyway! My point is: when I watch a trailer from a Twilight movie I instantly compare it to what I know from the book. Which scene is that? Is it the meadow scene? Is it this one, or that one?

Now I come to the most important thing ever: The trailer most of the times fools you!! They are mostly done when the movie is not finally cut and ready, so they take what they have and put together a trailer or a teaser. This bothers me most!

Example:

1) Twilight trailer - The scene with Emmet saying "She's not one of us" . Where the heck is it in the movie? Yes, this scene didn't make it in the movie. Emmet was banned in the Deleted scenes..

2) New Moon trailer: The scene with Bella facing Laurent - running away and screaming "Jake - Run!" Completely out of the context right? Two scenes mixed together to make a decent trailer. I.Don't.Like.This!

Second thing: The intonations and the pauses in the dialogues. Here we have to same problem, scenes are taking without knowing if those are the final scenes in the movie.

Example:

1) Twilight Trailer: "What if I'm not the hero.....(dramatic pause!!!!) What if I'm the bad guy?" You know, I've seen this Trailer a million times and this two sentences are burned into my brain - with the dramatic pause. But in the movie it comes out differently, no pause.

2) New Moon trailer: The Birthday party scene : "It's time it's time.... and there is a cake too!" Where is the cake in the movie? Yes it's there on the table but Alice doesn't mention it.

Does that seem fussy? Yes maybe but it bothers me , a lot! It really does!

Next thing are all the pictures which are floating around in the internet. I remember when they filmed the Reunion Scene in Italy and people afterwards put the pictures together. Awww , too fucking much for me!

Don't even mention the pictures from the set: Which scene are they filming there - And damn it I hope they get it right!!

Don't care - I trust them! Seeing set pictures might confuse you and again: I.Don't.Want.This!!!

Those are all examples why I personally like it better staying Spoiler free and be a complete virgin when I see the holy movie the first time. I love it!

Actually, I doesn't bother me anymore, I got used to it. In the beginning it was hard to remain pure. When the first trailers came out it was hard staying in Twitter because nearly everyone tweeted about it. Now, I don't freaking care anymore!

Same for blogs with spoilers, I know that there are a some blogs which often post spoilers and I just visits them when I'm sure it's a spoiler free post.

You know what helps? The Google Reader! The blogger Dashboard is shit for us Spoiler Purists because it always shows a thumbnail of the pictures inside - too risky! The Google Reader is much better, you just see the titles of the blogs you follow and most of the times you get already from the title if it's a spoiler post or not.

Best thing ever are the blogs which love us Spoiler Denier so much that they put a Spoiler warning in the title of each post and use the "read more" function so that we don't accidentally see things we don't want to see. One perfect example is The Danger Magnet! Wonderful, thank you Annie from the bottom of my heart for doing this!

See? We can exist side by side.

How was it in the end for me?

Well, I saw one New Moon trailer in the beginning, which was before I announced my Spoiler Purist live. ( I wish I wouldn't have seen it either, but anyhoodle) The others I didn't see and really, believe me when I'm saying I looooved seeing the movie completely free of expectations!

It was pure and it was epic!

And yes it is different, although you know the blot by heart but seeing it all put together in a movie is something else!

You might still say: But girl, once you saw the movie you will probably see it 100 times again. You are right, but all I have then in my mind is the movie - the pure movie, not any pictures from the set or weird trailer scenes. Just the epic purenes of a movie...

With that I want to ask you now:

How was it for you Spoiler Bunnys - did it bothered you in the end that you knew nearly the complete movie before? Or don't you care at all and enjoyed New Moon no matter what you knew before?

My Twipuirist girlies: How was your first impression when you saw the movie the very first time without knowing anything? Was it worth it?

One more question: Who is going Eclipse Pure with me and my girlies?

And for all of us I made Buttons some time ago to grab and put them on the sidebar, you can find them all on my Twispired Blog Design site!

Part one for the Twipure ones and Part two for the Spoiler Bunnys!

Go there and grab them, there are different ones, hope you like them!

Mrs V speakes out about New Moon and TayTay!

Sweet little TayTay: First I have to apologize that I have been so mean to you in all my last posts, but please you are still under age (Are you? I dunno..) and I’m in and out Team Edward. But, you won a little piece of my heart in New Moon. Don’t grab too much, but yes I’ll give you a piece of my heart. You ask what the Heck happened? Ok let me tell you ….:

Yesterday I saw New Moon again. After my last post about KStew and Bella and all the lovely comments from you girls, I saw New Moon with a tiny different eye. I never expected soo many comments, thank you all from the bottom of my heart! I love you all and I enjoyed reading them.

Thank you : fragile little human, Stan, Stoney, Erikasbuddy, Snarkier than you, Honolulu Girl, Anonymous, Amy, Susi, Bella, Annie, uhyesplease, Anonymous, Spellbound, Smuttier Than You, TwiNabler and Alice.

But I digress; we wanted to talk about TayTay. Yes he surprised me with his passion for this role. In Twilight I really gave a shit about Jacob, Jacob who? I mean, this wig was horrible but they really didn’t do any better in New Moon, just saying. I went into the theater ready to not like Jacob and after I saw New Moon the first time all I had in my head was KStew with her wonderful performance and well Edward … Yesterday sweet little boy TayTay won that piece of my heart.

I was honestly a bit confused why he came to Bella’s school on her birthday, normally they are not real good friends at this part but when he gave Edward THIS look it was awesomeness and great! However, the wig is still ugly!

I really felt his joy when Bella came to see him, sweet! The scenes were they are working on the bikes were sweet and nice.

I won’t go into a detailed New Moon discussion I’ll rather focus on the scenes that are prominent in my mind.

What I liked most on the bike scene was not seeing his naked chest (under age, remember?!) it was rather his ability to bring a weird situation back to normal with a tiny joke and a smile. “How hard did you hit your head?” .

Really good was TayTay in the “break-up”, he performed this scene with such a passion and despair it was wonderful. Really great!!

Should I mention the scene when TayTay climbs or better jumps into Bella’s room? Awesome!

One of his best scenes (for me ) was in Emily’s house were he leaned cool on the door and waves his head to Bella to follow him! There, I totally forget this under age thing!!!

What I really liked is that Chris Weitz changed a bit the scene at Bella’s house when Alice comes back. I never liked that Jacob just went away without seeing that everything is fine after he realized that there is a Vampire. He didn’t do that in the book but I always thought Jacob would have to make sure Bella is safe. The kitchen scene and this almost kiss was wonderful and in that scene I really wanted them to kiss!!! Yes I’m still Team Edward but TayTay would have deserved this kiss. When he said in Quileute “Stay with me forever” it was all heartbreaking and sweet. The despair when he begged Bella to stay was perfect delivered!

Damn, and I felt so bad for him in the very last forest scene when he realized he will have never have a chance to get Bella back, that she will always choose Edward over him. I read people complaining that Bella said “ I love you” to him but I found this very appropriate to be honest. She does love him, not like a lover but she loves him more than anybody else apart from Edward.

And this Mr Weitz was simply genius!!:

TayTay: That is all why I love you now, you did a wonderful performance in New Moon and I wish you a happy ending from the bottom of my heart. But, be aware you will always be the dog for me because I know you want to take Bella away from Edward!

So girls, now it’s you. Were you surprised by TayTay’s performance? Did he also get a piece of your heart although you are all Team Edward? To all the Team Jacob peeps do you now love me now a bit more? ;)

MrsV speaks out about New Moon and Bella!

Wake up from the New Moon coma, it’s time!

It’s been now more than two weeks ago since New Moon finally hit the theaters. We waited so long for this and now I have the feeling that we are all sitting in a black hole. The excitement slowly went down and now we have to wake up.

I expected that I would read reviews, opinions’, screaming’s all over in bloggy world but it’s been fairly quite. Annie at the Danger Magnet gave a really cool review and slowly the other blogs come out now of the black hole and start telling about their experience at the premiere and what they like or dislike about New Moon. I already told you about my New Moon weekend with my beautiful Twincé Betti but I now want to tell you what I think about New Moon itself!

Yes, I woke up! I came out of the coma and left the black whole and now I will tell you!

I start with something all of you would probably not expect from me but I will talk about Kristen Steward and Bella first. Hu???? Read on please, don’t leave me now!

When I go back to our Twilight Book vs. Movie discussion it became clear that most people really don’t like KStew, don’t like her being Bella and dislike her acting skills. Well, I came out of New Moon and one of the first things I said to Betti was : “ I love KStew in here! Period!! “

First of all, she got older and she’s super gorgeous and beautiful. In Twilight she was a girl I wouldn’t even recognize on the street because she was just not shining. Apart from her lack of glow the stupid makeup she had in Twilight, this ugly blue eye shadow was so unnecessary! One had the feeling she was still trying to find the “Bella” inside her, in New Moon she IS Bella.

The way she showed Bella’s grief and despair was heartbreaking, when you looked into her eyes you saw the emptiness, at least I saw it! One scene will always make me cry and breakes my little heart is when she is sitting in the chair and we go through October, November, December. I even have goosebumps now while writing it and thinking about it. Together with the song “Possibilities” it gives me exactly the feeling I needed to have in this scene!

I heard some people complaining that she didn’t cry during the breakup scene, but for me there was no need for it. She was beyond being able to cry and when she’s lying in the wood rolled inside her it was all how I pictured it while reading the book.

I saw the happiness coming back into her eyes when being with Jake and I saw her anger when she punched Jared in his face! I saw her attempt to show Charlie that she’s willing to try and start living again, you know in the scene when they are standing besides her truck and Charlie tells her that she has to go back to Jacksonville!

And, I believed her despair when Jake who told her that he’s not good for her.

I loooooveeeeeed how she told Edward to shut up during the voting scene!

When talking about Bella, one more thing comes into my mind what I found super clever and perfect, the emails to Alice. You get two things with that, First how close the relationship between Bella and Alice is and Second, Bellas desperate feelings and grief. Something you always deal with while reading the book but in a movie one can’t get that so it was clever to do it that way, I loved it and how excruciating it is that all those emails come back …

The only scene where I’m not sure about is the Meadow scene! First, it was a perfect twist to make the Meadow all sere – great idea!!! It matches perfectly Bellas feelings when she arrives at the Meadow, before you see the beautiful Meadow and then all is gone and sere… But I’m not sure if I got the right feeling about her heartbreaking, maybe I would just have to see it again.

However, to conclude once more: I love her in New Moon. She finally became my Bella and I can’ wait to see her in Eclipse and finally as a beautiful and breathtaking Vampire in Breaking Dawn!!

So my lovely girls and guys, tell me all about it:

Do you love Bella or still don’t like her? Was she better in your eyes than in Twilight? What did you like and what not? Was there a scene where she surprised you ? Was there a scene where she totally annoyed you ?

My wonderful Twiancé and our New Moon weekend

MRSV: Oh Betti, I think we have to talk about our weekend right? I mean, we waited for this since months and drove everybody crazy in Twitter and here, so I think we should tell them a bit. May I start, may I start???

BETTI: No! I'm older. And taller. I will start.

MRSV: ?!?

BETTI: Aww.... just kidding!! *punches Mrs.V playfully* Go ahead!

MRSV: I really counted the days until THE Saturday arrived and I'll finally gonna meet my Twiancé Betti in flesh and bone and can actually hug her so tightly. Then it was time...

BETTI: *mimicking Alice* It's time. It's time!

MRSV: ...and I nervously drove to the airport and waited impatiently for her to show up. I hoped that I would recognize her immediately since she promised me to wear her red cap.

BETTI: Which I did!

MRSV: And then Betti came and yes, I recognized her immediately and, wanna know what she did? She dropped her bag and made a small dance! Yes this is Betti! *giggles* Then we just hugged tightly!

BETTI: Well, I told you I would perform a happy dance, right? *laughs* But maybe it was more of a... uhm... modern free dance, I don't know... anyway, I just... danced.

MRSV: I just freaked out because Betti is sooooo taaaallll and even wore those high heels and well, I stood beside her, tiny and with my Chucks…

Yes, I really wore that stuff ...

BETTI: … and your Cullen Baseball sweater! Sooo cute... fell in love in a split-second!

MRSV: However, I took her to my car and first thing we did was having a smoke.

BETTI: Uhh... I needed that badly. *cough*

MRSV: Yes, one of the things we really have in common - we smoke like hell.

BETTI: By the way, does anyone of you Twi-merch experts know whether there is such a thing like a Twilight ashtray? For a car? Just asking... because Mrs.V made me open the window and...

MRSV: Betti!!! I don't think this belongs...

BETTI: Ok, ok... *giggles*

MRSV: We went briefly to my workplace, and I showed her my Twioffice. Remember Betti? one can even see it from the outside: Look, 2^nd floor in the middle, there where the Rob posters are on the wall.

BETTI: Yes, there was one window screaming TWILIGHT! We went inside and Mrs.V introduced me to some of her co-workers and some stemm cells. Both species were very friendly. I felt a little uhm... scrutinized by that one handsome male co-worker who followed us to the lab, but it was ok. Oh, and I swear, one of the stemm cells waved at me through the mikroskope!! Fascinating...

MRSV: However, when we arrived at my place we figured out that we have another thing in common, we are addicted to coffee!

BETTI: Oh yeah...

MRSV: I didn’t know anyone who drinks as much coffee as I do, but this was before I found you!

BETTI: I didn't know anyone who makes such a good coffee before I found you, my dear! I was tempted to ask whether I may have it intravenous, you know, moving around with an IV bag, hanging from such a pole on wheels... *laughs*

MRSV: Oh yeah I would love having that too!! After one more smoke, and with another hot coffee in our hands, we started giving us presents! Squeeeeeee! Yes, we he had presents for each other!!! But this is your turn Betti, you unwrapped mine first, right? Which was a small one, but perfect for our weekend!

BETTI: Yes, I opened the small one first, and in there were two NM wristbands in red and white, that was so sweet!

MRSV: And I bought the same for me just in black.

BETTI: Yes, I put mine on, and Mrs.V and I waggled our wrists at each other and laughed and squeed like teenage girls!

MRSV: But then came my biggest surprise for her, something I knew she would never buy for herself *giggles*. And she really freaked out.

BETTI: I did!! I literally jumped off the couch and screamed... because it was a fucking Pocket Edward!!! I think I smooched him and pressed him to my boobs, I might even have licked him... I don't remember, because as soon as I saw him, a kind of frenzy began... and I stammered: 'Mine... you are mine... oh yeah... mine!'

MRSV: It was awesome! I’m beyond happy to see that she apparently loved my little present that much. OooOoOo now it’s my turn: and Betti came with a big beautiful red box! This was a bit scary. A.Big.Red.Box! Full of wonderments.

BETTI: Well, since it was the first time in years that someone had invited me to their place, and - I mean, it was my beloved Twiancé! - I had been so excited the weeks before, so I had started to collect little presents and just couldn't stop *laughs*, so in the end I actually needed that big box *shrugs*

MRSV: She brought me some of her music, which is wonderful because I always wanted to hear more of her stuff, including one CD with Bedtime Stories. *does a lill happy dance* and a poster from her band.

BETTI: Uhm... yes, it's a little awkward to make one's own stuff a present like this... but I just wanted you to have something personal of me. I'm so glad you liked it!

MRSV: Sure I did!! I mean I can always hear you when I listen to your music, that’s awesome! Then there was one more small box and my pulse quickened when I opened it, and inside were super sweet little buttons and……OOooOOooo a twigagement bracelet!!!! Squeeeee!!

BETTI: Woot! *claps hands*

MRSV: Now it was me freaking out, with a little “B” and “D” (this is me, Dani) and a crystal heart, aaaannnnddd Betti has the same, annnndd she made them all by herself which makes it even better...

BETTI: Oh God... breathe, Mrs.V!!! *laughs*

MRSV: Really, I freaked out about this wonderment, how sweet is that??!??! Since that day I wear it every day!

Isn't that super sweet?!!

BETTI: Awww... me too!

MRSV: As I promised my Twiance I would cook for her and since she was still suffering from her flu, I made something with tons of calories: Lasagna!! Homemade, for sure.

BETTI: Yes, and while you were cooking, I had a conniption and laughed my ass off alone in your living room, and you came peaking around the corner to see what was going on, remember? I had dressed my new Mini-E *cackles*

MRSV: Oh god this really cracked me up, I stood in the kitchen and heard suddenly I big laugh…

BETTI: Yeah, since I had to learn that I couldn't strip him... LOL, he looked like a Teletubby!!! Didn't you take a picture, Mrs.V?

MRSV: Sure! wait, here it is giggles Isn’t he sweet??

BETTI: Oh, yes... and then... whoaaaa, came the Lasagna!! Oh. My. God.

MRSV: I was so surprised, skinny Betti ate not just one portion, not two, she eat three!!!

BETTI: No idea what came over me...

MRSV: Hello?!?! Is there a better compliment for a cook than this?

BETTI: Certainly not! I didn't even like pasta before... but this was... nomnom... like... oh...

MRSV: And I’m not talking about the Belgium pralines afterwards.

BETTI: Well, it was just one family box of cream filled chocs. No big deal. And you ate one or two pieces too!

MRSV: Ok, after we calmed down and more coffee and more smokes we just talked, chatted and talked, oh yes and we watched Twilight again. This was obvious, hu?

BETTI: *mimicking Billy* ...actually came to visit your flatscreen! *giggles*

MRSV: It was so wonderful to see it with a true Twifriend, something else than just seeing it alone or with a “normal person”, right?

BETTI: I agree. Though we didn't really “watch” it, did we? Because we either spoke along with the movie dialogues or fell back into excited chatting and swooning... it was just lovely that the DVD was playing while we were there, together finally, right?

MRSV: Absolutely, finally I had someone with whom I could share all my thought about the movie, that was awesome! After more coffee and more smokes we finally went to bed and tried to get some sleep to be ready for the New Moon day! Squeeee!

BETTI: And MrsV generously granted me unrestricted access to her Holy Grail (i.e. her Macbook), which I found unbelievably sweet... so trusting... and... *sighs*

MRSV: *giggles* The next morning I made a coffee and tried to wake up Betti with a fresh coffee. Truly I never met one who sleeps deeper than Betti.

BETTI: Well, you know, I use to only sleep every second night, and this was my second, since I had been much to excited to sleep the night before we met, so...

MRSV: “Betti, coffee, wake up” - “Betti, we gonna see Ne Moon today” - *include some music* - “Betti, coffee is getting cold” - “We gonna miss New Moon if you won’t wake up”... 10 minutes!!!

BETTI: Well, yeah... uhm, sorry... *laughs* your couch was really very comfortable.

MRSV: Finally she managed and after some coffee and some smokes...

BETTI: ...which I took sitting in the open balcony door, wrapped up in the comforter, with Mini-E huddled to my bosom. Hey, that was the first time I was glad that I don't have a real cleavage, because that two-finger-space was perfect for Mini-E, you know? *laughs*

Yes, this was the New Moon morning, I think Mini-E felt quite well...

MRSV: ...we got dressed in our fan-shirts, and nervously drove into the city, ready for New Moon! God, we were both so excited!

Isn't she gorgeous??

MRSV: The theater was full of Teenies and yes, we raised the age average quite a bit.

BETTI: Well, actually it was just ME raising the age average. MrsV was the one lowering the average height *snicker*

MRSV: Ha-ha!! Really funny, Betti! Anyway... since we had skipped breakfast we had to buy some Popcorn, I mean what is a movie without it?

BETTI: I was well stuffed with insulin... and adrenaline...

MRSV: OooOooo, my goodness! I won’t give a New Moon review now because this would been hell too much. Just put it like this: I had water in my eyes nearly the whole movie.

BETTI: It was awesome. And MrsV was so brave... she didn't break my fingers during all the hand-holding and death-gripping we did, I was very thankful. We just, uhm... cuddled a lot. *smiles at the memory*

MRSV: I love Robward, I was positively surprised by TayTay and I was touched be KStew! Yes, you read this right! I love her in New Moon. But more on that later, this has to go into a separate post!

BETTI: I liked her too. I think Kristen actually made it to Face G, or even H in this movie. And she looked beautiful.

MRSV: Afterwards Betti and me found ourselves in a NewMoonComa, we were emotionally worn out, but it was heaven. We went for dinner and just talked and talked and talked about everything we have seen and loved, it was perfect!

BETTI: Just like it is supposed to be when you share such an event with a twifriend. It was a first for me, and I can't tell you how much I loved that!

MRSV: We managed to drive home, somehow, and chatted a bit with MrV, who was really lovely.

BETTI: Oh, he truly was! *giggles* First thing he said, after looking up and down at me: ”So... did you get a lot of phone numbers already here in Munich?” A little cheeky, but such a nice compliment, right? And he sat down with us and we got talking. He seemed to be really interested in everything, and kinda fascinated to see that, besides all the twimania, MrsV's twifriend is just an ordinary woman and not a total whacko *laughs*. No really, he's such a sweet guy... lucky MrsV!

MRSV: However, after he went to bed, Betti and me did what we did the whole weekend, coffee, smoke and chat.

BETTI: Yeah, and we got a little more close up and personal that night which was great. But I had felt like visiting someone I'd known for years from minute one anyway. *smiles lovingly at MrsV*

MRSV: sigh it was wonderful, getting to know my Twiancé better was wonderful! Next day it had to drive her to the airport, which was sad enough, but altogether we had a wonderful perfect weekend

BETTI: Absolutely! We shared one last tight hug in the parking lot. And I couldn't help but bend down to give her another Edwardly kiss on her hair, because I just so much loved to do that. Don't get me wrong, folks – NM and everything was awesome – but the part I internalized the most and took home with me to remind me that everything was real, is that: the feeling of MrsV's tiny shape against me and my nose in her hair... - oh noez, honey, don't... oh fuck... water in her eyes – again! *shakes head*

MRSV: And yes, I love you even more! Love you honey! I truly do!

BETTI: Love you too. Thanks for everything!

Me and the disaster of the New Moon premiere!

Caution: this will a whiny pathetic post, in case you are already in a shitty mood yourself, don´t read on but come back and read it later! I definitely need people who pity me... 

I guess I need to start at the beginning. When the dates of the New Moon premiere have been released I was immediately pissed, because the former Germany release date was January7. Ridiculous!!! There was no way I would see NM that late, rather will hell freeze or Bella will go with Mike to prom before I would see NM first time in January.

At the same time, BFF applied for a two weeks workshop in the states, New York to be precise and this would go until: November, 19!!! 

Destiny!!! Fate!!!

We formed the genius, marvelous plan that she will fly home later and I would meet her in NYC on the 19., we would see NM and have a great weekend in New York. 

Doesn´t that sound fabulous? Oh Yes it does!!! I was so hooked! MrV even promised to take care of a good hotel. I was even close to convince my Twiancé Betti to come with me ( you remember we are twigaged?).

However, they changed the German releases date and accelerated it to November,26.! Better, but not good enough! This is still one week later - one week where nearly every blogpost will look somehow like this: 

*Squeeeeee, cutie and Memory_Jean in the New Moon premier* - *Twitarded fighting the kiddies at the New Moon premiere* - *New Moon - Bitches!! * - *fragile little human, BFF, drinks, New Moon premier*  

and so on and on ....

Anyway, the plan was still on, and BFF and me were still excited about it. The only little, tiny, small thing missing was the acceptance. I never ever doubted they won´t take her. I can´t post a picture form her, but she is all lovely, beautiful and so smart!!! They would be stupid not to take her.. 

But!!! so they did. They rejected her! We got his fucking email this week.. 

*screaming*

*crying*

*hating*

*yelling* 

All this wonderful master-plan dead, over, not working any more! I can´t tell how fucking pissed I was, or still am! Unfortunately, she just can´t do it either way, meaning flying with me just for this weekend.

I still could do it alone - MrV thinks this would be crazy like hell, but he did crazy stuff himself. But do I really want that ? Seeing the movie alone might be OK, but I´m not that kind of person who likes spending so much time alone on a trip. And hey, what is better to see this film with someone as excited as you are? We are not talking  about any movie, we talking about New Moon - my favorite book and Edward fucking Cullen, played by Robert fucking Pattinson. I would sit alone in a big city and would have nobody to talk about it and I´m such a chatty person.

So here I am desperate, whiny, pathetic, pissed, mad and simply fucked up! 

The only thing which keeps me up, is the knowledge that my lovely Betti  will come to Munich and we´ll see New Moon together! This, we would have done nevertheless, but it makes me incredible happy to finally meet her - I never even thought we would meet at some point, but Twilight brings us all together, even in real life.

However, I won´t see New Moon at the same day as you all, but I´ll have Betti!!! We will scream, cry and laugh together and me thinks we will get some bruised from squeezing our hands and wrists...

My new photoshop love made me do this here, but Betti is truly the bestest of the best, she made this beautiful Comic-Betti and the popcorn!! Lovveee you soo much!!!! 

Spoiler free - or how to remain pure

The last days have been horrible! Truly.fucking.horrible! 

It´s been a while since I decided among others to stay spoiler free, which means to avoid any trailers, teasers and set pictures. Why the fuck doing so? I mean I know the plot by heard and New Moon is absolutely my favorite!

Well, I save my brain, my eyes, my screams for the big day - meaning November, 20! It is in a way stupid, since I gonna see New Moon definitely tons of times afterwards, but I won´t miss the first feelings I´ll have sitting in the cinema and see it for the first time on a big screen. This will be heaven - true pure heaven, and it will be overwhelming and Betti really  needs to hold my hand! You will do that my friend, yes? 

I mean, I´m not completely pure. I ´ve seen the MTV movie awards and saw the first official trailer and it was like a unicorn. I just knew: this movie will be great! They will do it right! Apart from that I saw set picture, yeah I saw them and I was like a junkie. I had to see them, all of them, now. But the reunion scene pictures changed me. This was just too much, way too much, way more than what I wanted to see. And around this time I met some wonderful people in Twitter and some of them told me they stay spoiler free. But what really changed me completely was this post from KG and cutie. (There is also a list from people which stay together pure) 

But how do I manage this??? The web is full of spoilers and the days where there is a new teaser release are horrible! Twitter is going nuts about it and nearly every blog post something about it. The last days have been pure hell. I needed all my willpower not to watch  it and somehow I managed! 

I´m pretty much proud of myself! 

What helps also to stay pure is a blogroll, you see immediately the post topic and can simply avoid going to this site.

Well, basically what you need it an enormous amount of strength and will! Still, it is pure freaking fucking hell!  So, don´t click at the links and avoid the spoiler blogs. 

But are there any  spoiler free blogs left? I mean, we need something to distract ourselves, apart from reading FanFic or other Vampire books.  A few, only I few I know are left. Here is a list of blogs, I know won´t post any spoilers: 

SuperSecret Twilight blog - cutie is really the purest of all of us

fragilelittleguman 

iheartmythicalcreatures 

webiteprettyhard 

If there are more sites, let me know I´ll update the list and add yours. You will find the list on the sidebar :)

So find the will! It is never to late...